believeinme

I will let you keep your dignity.
Your fantasy, your lies..these will remain secret so that you can save face. Three people know the truth.
How tragic it must be to live your life unable to accept defeat graciously.,needing to fabricate the reason why.
What a tangled web we weave when we try to deceive.
Sleep well, awake and look in the mirror......do you like what you see?
Dont fear, I wont expose you .........just remember,
Before you can be true to ...

I felt it for real....you felt it in your mind.
I tasted him as he did me....you licked your lips pretending.
I heard his words....you only read them.
I see the marks.....you merely wished for them.
I held him in my arms....you only hoped.
I awoke to him.....you only dreamt of him.
I have him......you never did.
I am his desire.....you were a fill in.
I am his need....you were a toy.
I am his love....you were his amusement.
We ...

One more brick to go, the mortar is loose, push hard.....I'm holding on...clinging tight...fingernails grasping the crumbling cement. Waves of past hurt ebb and flow, visions of smiles,words of re assurance., let me drop to my knees.....blur my vision of others unrequited love for you, .....................hold my hair, the gentle force of you ....weaken my defence, let me mould onto you..my lips, tight, surround your power. Hold me there, swallowing deep, feeling you warm me......finally reality, ...