inching my way closer and closer to my 30th birthday and catching up with my mom's 29th i seem to get braver and braver. Actually been attending more and more munches and getting to know people. Although i have this invisible shield around me .. proclaiming that i'm really not interested in anyone, that i'm not searching for anyone. But of course.. deep down that is a lie. I'm searching, i'm looking. Even on here i'm searching and even get a bit jealous as girls find *their Master*. Why is it so ...