The first was I ended up ruining the scene because I was too afraid of going too far, but the second was that I discovered I enjoyed the feeling of overpowering her, controlling her and the thought of her suffering.
I have found this to be true for many a sexual sadist I have spoken to.


Denzard said:
@just_ine - You may have misunderstood me, maybe not, your response is not clear. I said the only difference between bdsm sadist and the rvil sadist like the serial killers (example) is the consent. By that I meant both get pleasure from causing suffering. One restrains himself in the absence of consent the other doesn't. I'm not sure how you disagree with this.
Quoting from Your original post:
The only difference consent makes is it overcomes legal obstacles.
I can see that You view it as a male Dominant and as such Your statement is not untrue at all.
It is simply not the only difference... the legal one. For the submissive/bottom/masochist on the receiving end there are many more clear differences. These are less clear cut and are more difficult to express and put a value on, but the difference remains.