That's a wonderful intro VP7. Exploring this part of yourself - especially when you're busy as hell - can be hard to do, but like Tojo says it's supposed to be something you do for fun, not to be taken too seriously all the time even though there are some serious aspects. Looking at it a piece at a time is a good way to begin - instead of thinking of a sub/dom relationship as one big daunting package, think about one or two things you'd like to try and focus on learning about that and maybe finding someone who can give those one or two things to you. Like my namesake says "Little by little does the trick."

Anyway welcome to the forums and if you have any questions don't hesitate to contact me.