it sounds to me, tessa, like you have a pure masochistic streak running through you

and Domme or no...those sadistic desires you have, are you aiming them at yourself, or someone else? either physically, or in your own mind? do these thoughts turn you on?


there are Doms who wander through here who could help you sort those thoughts out more readily than i could, but it seems that this might be a place to start....