journey to becoming good_girl

[BorderCollie]

GoodGirl,
I dunno it's 'cause your story is from the heart of 'cause your a Cannuck but I look forward to each installment! LOL
You are an incredibly strong person.... Kudos to ya baby.

[twilight(Whippett)]

Really enjoying reading this Congrats on the new Dom- hope life continues to be as good and enjoyable as you mostly certainly deserve it to be.

[Sir Robert]

When I first saw this new forum subject my thought was “cool, a place to tell my whole story” and then I began to wonder how I would tell it without boring readers to death. I want back and forth and finally decided that this would have been very useful for me to read others stories when I had first arrived here at the library. So…I am writing this for myself first and then for any newcomers who might find it helpful to relate to someone, as well as for anyone who might find it interesting.

Who am I and how did I get here?
I’m good_girl
I just had my 40th birthday but I don’t feel anywhere near old enough to be 40 so I went backwards this year…I’m 38 now

In order for you to know me you need to know a bit about who I used to be, so here goes.

I am mother to my beautiful 21 year old daughter, I had her when I was just 18 (thanks mom and dad for all your help) Life was rough being a single mom, but I was a survivor.
At 25 I met the love of my life…ya right
Fast forward 13 years….I’m now divorced from a crack addict who spent the last 7 years of our relationship lying to me, verbally abusing me and destroying me….but again, I proved myself to be a survivor *smiles proudly* I got out.
This was probably the scariest time in my life, I had spent my entire adulthood being a wife and mother. My daughter now grown, my marriage done…I didn’t know who I was or where I belonged…my self esteem nonexistent, I felt completely useless, my future so uncertain…I wanted to lay down and die…and then it hit me…I’m a survivor…I have to fix it.
I picked myself up, dusted myself off and had a look around…the world was a very scary place for me…I got counseling, took a self esteem workshop, disconnected from anyone negative in my life, made new friends, bonded with my daughter in a way I didn’t know was possible (she is amazing)….I got happy *smiles*

*takes a deep breath to clear the lump in my throat*

This has been hard for me to write so I’m gonna leave it here for now and pick up later…to be continued…..

Forgot to mention the courage it took to go from where you were to where you are now....Wonderful perservance

[good_girl]

*smiles proudly* thanks to everyone who has read this...everyone who has commented...and especially everyone who has been there for me through this leg of my journey so far, it's been wonderful but I'm sure the best is yet to come

[angelic.zest]

wwoooohhhhhhhhhhhoooo gooooo good girl!!!!!

[locobaybee]

Good Girl, I just got done reading your story and it brought tears to my eyes.....our story is soooo similar it was scary.........congrats on your happiness........I too have found my Dom and the feeling is awesome........take care and keep writing you are amazing!!

[kramasha]

thanks a lot for sharing.
It is nice of you to share your journey.
All the best and keep up
take care

[MasterD]

GG-

Thanks for sharing with us your heartfelt journey. While we all travel such roads, some are harder than others and [we are] so glad for you both! I speak for everyone... teehee.