You embrace the fullness of her life, know she had joy and sorrow but grew as a person and lived a long life and celebrated in friends and family. you will honor her memory and as the pain and sorrow fades you will be able to think of her and smile no longer seeing only the sorrow.

I recently suddenly lost my grandmother, my grandfather suffered for 4 months in a hospital slowly dying before our eyes and 5 years ago we lost our 2yo son, if does seem like you will never be able to stop grieving but it will run its course.

It took me 3 years before certain songs wouldn't make me cry thinking of our son or be able to talk about him remembering him for all his joy and not just his lose.

Be strong for you and her, but allow yourself to be human and grieve however you need to.

Take care.