Dear little one, many have walked the path you now walk. I know the emptiness of being the last. Thorne's practical advice is absolutely outstanding. I strongly urge you to follow it. Do not crowd out your very appropriate grief with business about that grief.

As for your Momma,

See her strength, see it before you now? It is your strength, too. She cannot have it without passing it to you. Strength does not make it stop hurting, strength guarantees that the hurting has an end point. Strength guarantees that the hurting will not cripple you, mentally or emotionally. See her strength, as she hangs on for you when it would be so much easier to go? It is your strength, too.

See her love, there before you, as she thinks of you, waving to you, trying to do what you ask in eating, drinking, etc? It is your love too. She cannot have it without passing it to you. Love makes seeing her now hurt worse for a season and makes her memory sweet for a lifetime. Love makes you want her to stay, when she cannot. Her road now leads over a great gulf, which no human can span. Her love makes her trust you to love her across it. You can do that. You have the strength. See her love, her strength, there before you? It is your love, and your strength, too.

See her path, leading back to her birth, leading forward in to a misty veil where you cannot see? It is her path, but it is not your path. Her path is the one thing she cannot pass down to you. You have your path, she has hers, I have mine, we all have our own unique paths. Sometimes those paths cross, and sometimes they run together for a season. Today, you walk a path I have walked, Snow has walked, Thorne has walked, mkemse has walked, many others have walked. We will walk it again with you. You are not alone in your walk, but you must walk it. You have the strength to walk it, the love to give you power to use that strength, and the trust to ask for our help when the path is steep.

You WILL look back and smile, peacefully, one day. That is YOUR path.