denm_uk

Hi there, Dennis aka denm_uk here, good afternoon ~ or good morning/evening, depending what time zone you’re in whilst reading this latest web blog of mine on BDSM Library…

Date and time check: it’s almost 12:00 noon on Tuesday 11th November 2008 here in Worcester, England; but likely will be mid afternoon before I get around to posting it online, weather for a change is dry and sunny after two days of mostly rain and it’s rather mild for this time of year.

Ok…

Some of you may have read my previous comments, both in form of a blog and a posting in the personals forum on this site, regarding my desire to make some radical changes to my current lifestyle and to seek out someone special out there who might be willing and able to take a rather shy and insecure, submissive fifty one year old male in less than perfect condition (mostly wear & tear and rust!) and help him (me) rediscover what life is really all about, as her personal student in the world of domination and submission.

Not had much response so far, had posted on such sites as alt.com and others without any signs of hope or progress, so last Friday took the decision to upgrade membership somewhere that seemed to give more chance of some success (well that is what I hope) in the next few months.

I am talking of BDSM Singles…

So far I have written to a few on there, most of them within reasonable travelling distance for me should I be fortunate enough to get a favourable response, but there is one lady that I have written to who I fear I might have already lost my heart to, I saw her picture on her profile and that was that…

Cannot tell you who it is as yet, maybe someday soon if we start chatting, maybe more so if I get the chance to meet her, you will just have to take my word that just by looking at the picture of her face something clicked for me, just got to be patient and wait, and hope…

Apart from that I am mostly doing a lot of reading, offline as well as online, have searched for information relating to the D/s lifestyle that I still believe holds the key to my future happiness and maybe even fulfilment as an individual, there is a lot to take in ~ though some I have read before, likely some years ago when I wasn’t as sure about what I wanted as I am now.

I wish that I had friends that I could talk to, online as well as in real life, there isn’t anyone on MSN or Yahoo that I chat to who is into or interested in this topic, and as far as ICQ is concerned there’s just an empty contact list so it hardly gets used, maybe someday soon I will find the courage to do something I used to do many years ago and that is to go to a munch somewhere…

I suppose it is mostly because of the way I feel at this time that I have again become interested in the BDSM and fetish scene, the truth is I feel I am at a crossroads in my life and desperately want to run away (literally), to leave this existence far behind and to be someone’s personal 24/7 submissive partner, to spend some time learning and being taught by an experienced, patient and understanding woman, and if that means surrendering my freedom and liberty for six months or so, then so be it.

I wish that I could talk about myself, try and say why I am feeling like this, why I feel that I am at present living a life without meaning or purpose, why it was that I decided to join BDSM Library and more recently BDSM Singles. Maybe soon I will find someone out there who I can sit down and talk to, even better if that person is the lady I’ve already mentioned or someone of that standard, that I feel would really be good for my heart and soul.

Well that is all, thank you for taking the time to listen…

Bye for now, back soon though might be around online if anyone wants to say hello