Welcome. I too have "always known." My first experience with rope was when I was 5. Of course I didn't know then what those strange feelings were, but I can look back and recognize the intensity of my response. I am a dominant male. I can certainly be a resource for you online as you begin your exploration. It can be a little scary the first time you share your feelings about BDSM with someone else. Can you put into words a little about what you hope to get from an online relationship?